last night

Last night I felt the weight of my actions.

I felt the hurt I caused people in my life.

I felt the hurt I caused you.

I feel like there is no forgiveness for someone like me.

I feel my tears running down my face.

I feel the beat of my heart in my wrists.

my radial artery pulsing, begging to be cut open and pour out my sadness and regret until I feel nothing at all.