challenge

Conversations start again and again, no matter how we try to stay away. He worries about me. He wants me to leave with him, but says he can never ask that of me.

I worry about him. I want his family to approve. I want him to have happiness that comes from a complete life.

We have love so complete, intense, so happy... there are few who can understand.

I am his sunshine, his comfort, and obsession. He smiles every time he sees me.

He makes me feel beautiful, special, capable, feminine, and desired.

We know there are things more important than us. A bigger picture.

A challenge: one month no talking to each other. The longest we've gone is 3 weeks.

What will change in a month? Will we love each other all the same? Will the aching in my heart subside? Will I slowly lose the pure happiness and contentment I have when I think of him? Will time make him forget? He says he won't ever stop loving me. I say I won't either... but what do we know?

I dreamed about him last night. Half waking, half dreaming. I rolled over in bed. For a moment he was with me. I was sleeping in his bed. I saw his sleepy, smiling face. I wanted to get closer, wrap myself in his warmth, strength, and love. I smiled... then realized he wasn't there. I rolled away from where I thought he was, realizing I was in my own bed. Closed my eyes again, and tried to go back to sleep, knowing my love wasn't with me.

I took all his pictures, all our conversations... I put them away in a box. It sits in the back of my closet. A small glowing ember of our love. Will it cool and burn out? Or will it smolder quietly until it ignites and my house goes up in flames?

what will be in one month?